Dedication…

I feel like I’ve been unfaithful to my blog lately, between working on my audiobook and writing my daily journal I don’t feel I’ve had the time to stop in. So here’s to making an effort at keeping my goals in order.

I’ve been researching dreams, Jungian theory, and the Heroes Journey lately… Everything I can get my hands on (with the internet, options are limitless) and one hole leads down another and another until it’s the end of the day and my eyes are twitching and I realize I’ve been talking myself out of peeing for an hour, and just one… more… article… Just one last paragraph… just…

And the more I learn, the more aware of how little I know and the amount I could still learn just grows and grows until I have to turn off the scene, put down the pen and paper, and remind myself there is a real world out there, and so I put on my running shoes and decide to join it’s wintery landscape for as much a run as I can muster, I’m mentally exhausted after all…

So I start out, and like Forest Gump, one mile becomes two, becomes five, until I am so far away I could almost cry because, now, I still need to run back… Those always end up being the best, all of the fidgety ‘I’ve sat in one spot for too long’ energy has finally fizzled by the time I drag myself into the driveway.

Looking back, as I sit right now, part of me could cry… It’s such a labor of love until it’s potential is realized. Everything about life is meant to be a surprise, all of the best parts anyway, life seems to season with anticipation but the fact that it gave me a storytellers heart, a confused, often frustrated mind, and gypsy feet, was either the perfect ingredients for success or a super unsuave joke… I know someday this will all be worth it, until then, I pray for strength.

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